lila

2006-12-10T11:59:00.000+08:00

how do you make someone happy really?
by making them smile?
being by them whenever he/she needs you?
buy sweets and candies and chocolates?
cuddling with him/her?
love him/her?
hate him/her?
miss him/her?
sending 'i still remember you' cards?
what about those forwarded messages that was sent through sms or emails?
or even sending a smile from friendster.
by giving them surprises?
shower them with many many presents?
what else can you name?
will those stuffs really make someones' day?
are those mention above can really excite and makes them a happy person?

2006-11-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

Child Aid concert(29/11/2006)that was organized by The Straits Times and The Business Times was wonderful.My favourite part of the concert was by the youngest performer, Ethan Ong, and not forgetting the lil kids who did hip hop dance for the opening act.

it was memorable.not only that the concert was spectacular but also the volunteering team was marvellous.though me and si jia is like the oldest volunteer, but it was great.fun fun and FUNN.

the most breathtaking part was during the arrival of all the VIPs. had to be the cheparon for Mr Timothy and Mrs Josephine from Seagate Technology International.very nice people to be hanging out with.and Dr Tony Tan is adorable.(:

watching those youngsters performing like professionals, i was totally blown away.

thumbs up for all.

(although i have issues with the stage lightings.)

Arts Management gathering,from level 1 all through to level 3.it was nice mingling with the people and they were generous with their experience being in the industry.i wonder what happens to the Arts Management Society that is pending.is it confirm?

and mr weebits,thanks for bringing the girls out for lunch.and it was really filling.haha.we shall go there again and this time you must eat well.when things are better alright?and after that we can hit the shopping malls and shop till we drop?just like always.haha.and yes,im here just for you.(:

ting ting ting ting ting ting ting ting ting ting ting ting.

2006-11-23T21:24:00.000+08:00

a pretty nice show.its worth catching it.

in own personal opinion,i felt that its a better version than honey.though the dance routine were very tight for both shows but the storyline is much better in step up.

2006-11-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

there is definitely debates on how youngsters should and must behave in the society.

the way we speak, sit, eat, drink, walk, burp, clean our nose, and the list goes on.

have anyone ever thought of how older people, aged 30 years old and above, should also behave in the public?

maybe they should not burp loudly, not push everybody in order to get into trains, spit anywhere and everywhere, pick their nose, and bla bla bla.

just the way they hate seeing the young people doing it.

nobody likes what other people have and do.there is no way that we can satisfy everyone.the best resolution is to satisfy yourself.anyone else will come in after YOU.(:

2006-11-17T10:24:00.000+08:00

cindysherman,untitled#56

there so much things that happens in this life are rarely appreciated.

we always take things for granted.

we never fail to think that 'who cares about how and what others feel?as long as im happy its fine.'

do we know what happens to our neighbour when we are enjoying ourselves?

this leads to my sister's encounter at ecp.

she met a 9 year old boy who is homeless and at that point of time he was left alone at the beach without his parents and money.

arent we suppose to be thank ful with the shelter that we have above our head?

and the money that we have in our wallets,piggy banks,etc.?

and another thing,not all parents are the same as what you have.

your parents can be nice,who loves you so much and never neglects you.

gives their support to you whenever you needed them to.

do not mind rendering any form of help that you need.

lets now ask ourselves.

and reflect.

how many times in your life have you really appreciated with what you have and get?

2006-11-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

Singapore Salsa Congress is happening in singapore this December. there will loads of parties and workshops.those interested do drop by.can get tix at www.gatecrash.com or any SAM machine island wide.

more infos:http://www.singaporesalsacongress.com

this is the time to dance your hearts out.

not any other kind.

but its sensual.

full of passion.

enjoy Salsa this December.

2006-10-09T02:31:00.000+08:00

-CHUCK CLOSE-

Maggie, 1996, Oil on canvas

Big Self-Portrait, 1968,acrylic on canvas

2006-10-07T16:31:00.000+08:00

how much do you understand your girlfriend/boyfriend?
do you really know what she/he wants?
there are times when either she/he said "you dont need me to tell you what i want you to do right?so much of you saying that you understand."
and how many times is it that you are able to read in between the lines?
how did your partner(she/he) define the phrase 'i'll make it up to you'?

when female is concern here,its really hard.
a way to a male's heart is by his stomach.just keep on feeding him and he'll be contented.
but a way to a female's heart is alot of hard work.there is always no easy way for us to give you any straight directions.make your way carefully.

2006-10-05T07:59:00.000+08:00

its sweet.

its pretty.

its beautiful.

its colourful.

its gobstopper-ish.

its done by KIMMY.

thank you!(:

2006-10-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

performers of Fundamentally Happy, Alin(Habiba) and Enlai(Eric).

when past happiness was all based on something that happened out of the knowledge of anyone except for ismail(habiba's husband) and eric.how would a wife feel when she finds out that her husband is a paedophile only after 20 years later?the emotions that the cast potrayed was very powerful.and they are superb.though there were only two persons acting,i could feel the role of ismail just by the presence of a carpet.

'when it is raining and there is sun,God is showing us a sign.he is trying to confuse us.....'-habiba.

2006-07-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

it was just nice having great companion around.

had a good dinner though it was simple.thanks for the treat 'for the girls'.

arcade-ing was funn funn too!(:

mooMOO, hearts you much.

sarang-haeyo, mr wee-BIT.

snapsnapp!

neoprint-ing was beautiful.(:

sweetest dream to snappboyy.

*winks*

2006-07-03T10:50:00.000+08:00

my eyes open to the brightness of the sun.

yet another day for me to overcome.

dark chocolate indulgence.
the excitement of shopping at a party shop.
snapping time.
SNAP SNAP!
blew bubbles.

oh how fun.

immersed by intense feeling of desire.
entangled.

oh how that can make me blush.

PS: Happy 47th Birthday Papa.(:

I Love You.

*hugs*

2006-06-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

today is really a Family Day at Sentosa.
thanks everyone.
you made my life today so pretty!
hugs to all of ya.

lets do it again some other time?

but i still miss you much mr wee-bit.
its been a long long time since i saw you
*pouts*

2006-06-15T11:30:00.000+08:00

result for 2nd semester foundation is out.
Remarks: Pass. Progress to level 1. BA (Hons) Arts Management.
PHEW...!
the envelope was ultra HUGE.and my parents made me wait for the results for an hour!
and i know my classmates passed!
CONGRATS people.(:

sister already return home.

its been 3 days now.
and she is really busy with her love life.

*MR OINK & MRS OINK*
amazingly she went shopping there.:p

this is what she got for me.(:

the lolli is really huge .

and i have not finish them up.

but its a good thing cuz it did help me be

awake during the soccer matches.

it was World Blood Donor Day.

so went for it with sister.

since we cant really decide where to go for the day.

it was boring.

preferred last years' "celebration", movie screening at padang.

oh well...

but it was nice to just sit at the break water at night.

except that im with the wrong person larh.(:

but you are still a great companion.

*hugs*

2006-06-08T09:25:00.001+08:00

WELCOME TO THE HUSBAND STORE:
A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City, where a woman may go to choose a husband.

The instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates.
You may visit the store ONLY ONCE!There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights.There is, however, a catch...you may choose any man from a particular floor,or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building!

So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband...

On the first floor the sign on the door reads:
Floor 1: These men have jobs and love the Lord.

The second floor sign reads:
Floor 2: These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids.

The third floor sign reads:
Floor 3: These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids and are extremely good looking."Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going.

She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads:
Floor 4: These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop-dead good looking and help with the housework."Oh, mercy me!" she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!"

Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads:
Floor 5: These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop-dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak.

She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign reads:
Floor 6: You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store. Watch your step as you exit the building, and have a nice day!

REMEMBER:
Greed is one of the seven deadly sins.You have to learn to be grateful for what you have to get more. When you are ungrateful you end up with nothing.

2006-06-05T20:15:00.000+08:00

03/06
it was really a hot date with you.*winks*had a wonderful time watching Death and the Ploughman.one of the many many dates that will never be forgotten.

that was how we see life as perfect.

"Love and sorrow is always intertwined. The ending of one, is the starting of another."
-Death and the Ploughman

04/06
second day without sister's companion.boo hoo.);
miss her so much.
had her Lunchtime performance at 4th Young Singers Choral Festive.
lalalala...

05/06
mr wee-bit's first day.(:
want this to really make it happen and make it big someday.
WEE....!
*rub hands*
excitement.
JB day out is really boring without you Moos..!
and Pizza Hut does not offer for 3 persons meal.
wanna go with you next time.(:

time ticking really slowly.thats how i feel.cant wait for the return of my one and only farm animal who lives in HDB flat.(:

2006-05-25T21:31:00.001+08:00

was looking through the many videos...and saw this!i was reminded of the Media Arts class that FS2O always slacked at all times.(:remembered when we had our animation project.and the whole class so love this Happy Tree Friends animation.miss you all!

mmmwwaaahs...!

2006-05-25T21:31:00.000+08:00

currently listening to Keindahan Taman by Moosfirah

well, she will leaving me sleeping alone in the room.);

im so gonna miss her lar...
(wonders how dominic gonna cope though.heheh)
many many stuffs that we often share will have to be put on halt for about 9 days.
im sure gonna miss her so so much.

BIG HUG moooooooosFIRAH.
*winks*

2006-05-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

sixty ninth month.

you made my life beautiful.

thank you.

2006-05-08T01:10:00.000+08:00

why are there moments when you think that its just not going the right direction?you felt like its happening cuz you force the other to do it? you felt like the other might think that you are desperate?why do we,in some point of our life, will somehow be paranoid about how others might think about us?and you dont seem to be bothered at all on another?

i dont want it to happen again.neither do i wanna go back to where it ever started.in life there is no backspace like on the keyboard.whatever you do,say,etc can never be deleted.ill move on.

"Sex is merely an accident, or an adjunct: one of the curious obsolete organic processes which persisted in its own clumsiness, but was not really necessary."

-abctracted from Lady Chatterley's Lover by D.H Lawrence

2006-05-02T11:48:00.000+08:00

i just felt like i am getting the bond from those people.but the next thing i know its already the end of semester.and how much i miss seeing them now.

AMIRA
my so-called 'kakak'.she always act like my big sister.nags at me lar,this lar,that lar...but she is always unhappy when i call her kakak.heheh.but no doubt i always feel safe when im ard her.well,she is my 'kakak' afterall right?*winks*oh,and not forgetting she help me,the Miss Road Blind,get ard Singapore.especially to school by cab.hahaha.*winks again*

SHU JUN
my ever talented girlfriend.who always loves to safe money just so that she could go for her trip to urm... i think its europe or something.always reject me and amira whenever we wanna date her out.she is our Miss Spoilspot.eheheh.but well,i miss you now.*hugs*

FITRIA
my yet another 'kakak'.hahha.and my Wednesday-go-back-home girlfriend.and she nags alot.just like amira.dont understand this people lar.*shake head*we do share some common interest.heheheh.cheeky cheeky.*winks*I WANT TO MEET YOU ON WEDNESDAYS STILL!

EUNICE
a girl who claim that she gets excited when she see things moving.hahah.
thats all i have to say about her.cuz ill only remember as that.*raise eyebrows & smile*

HUDA
my fashion-addict-cum-shopaholic-partner-in-crime-cum-self-portrait-fan.fashion and shopping and cam whoring come first in everything that she do.no matter what.eat can always wait.right?heheh.im still waiting for our next NEO-PRINT!when can we go my dear...?*grins*

MARDIANA
this is Miss Im-Nice-to-Everyone.no doubt that she is.but she always put others before self.and she loves to eat!yumm yumm yumm...!heheh.oh, thank you for the BBQ the other day yar?hope you play those songs just so that you will remember me & amira.heheh.

KIT
she is very talented in any aspects of computer art.admire all her works. but she is pretty horny.hmm....and horny.and horny.oh well,thats all that i can think of.HORNY.(:

ZHI GUAN
i love this animated-look guy.he is very funny and very lame.somehow reminds of hugh(MI classmate) sometimes.he always complain that im fierce to him.sorry Ah Pang.ill be much nicer to you k?heheh.*smiles*

RAIHAN
my supplier for PILLOWS!hahaha.she loves to pinch my babats. hmmphhff!love her style of work...classy classy classy.

RAZIMAN a.k.a PAUL
loves tight jeans.loves small tops that reveals his body.always always notices anyone who brought tidbits and will definitely ask for it.no matter he like it or not.he is the one who introduces to local music bands.thank you Raz..*smiles*

HADI
the guy who loves to call me de-ly-la.and who burps out loud.

AZAHAR
a.k.a BANGLA.hahaha.but he is very uncle-y.he talks like my dad.he sometimes behaves like my dad too.conclusion?only age 20 but doesnt act like one.tsk tsk tsk.

KLENN
vulgarities makes up most of his sentences.the end.hahaha.oh, and also i did thought he was the cutest guy in class.ONLY on the first day of school.sadly.muahaha.

STEVIE
a very very huge fan of acrylic.dont know why but he really fetish acrylic.he is funny too.hahaha.always up to something lame to say.but he is really hardworking.

RYAN
the class pimp.and he loves doing so.(;

CHERYLYN
the class supervisor.and slow in doing most things.(:

ZHE YUAN
i am vain.i love to touch my hair.and i always smell nice.thats what i can conclude from my observations after 2 semesters.

DOMINIC a.k.a Mr I-ALWAYS-SKIVE-DURING-GROUP-PROJECT
i think that explains everything about him.oh well....

FS2O
bunch of girls and boys who is loud and crazy.who was thought to be such a lazy class.moving on,got a better reputation from lecturers.and ended the whole year with praises and chocolates from MARY.*grins*

thank you FS2O for the great companion.the smiles and laughter will never be forgotten.~hugs and kisses to all~

2006-04-08T09:13:00.000+08:00

"am i living in a world full of hatred?

where everyone despise me?

why am i treated this way?

do you think that i'm a living soul without emotions?

why cant you treat me like how you treat them?

whats so special about me that you have to do this to me?

im bad?im lazy?

what do you know?

i think its better off for me to be dead.

will you be happy if thats my decision in life?

then you wont have to waste on me.

you wont waste your breath saying im useless and such.

and i will stop feeling pathetic.

misery will just end.

that will be good...."

swirls of emotions.

i feel you.

every thought of you i could see a hidden truth.

you smile.

but are you really happy?

you joke.

but do you know that you are trying hard?

disappointment.

i know its not easy.

2006-04-04T20:42:00.000+08:00

to my dearest vainpot,
i know its hard.i know it suck too.but i want you to be strong.i want you to stand up again and face every challenges.it may be too much for you to handle.however,i believe that you can overcome them all.its all there within you.trust me.and i will always be by you.
lotsa love,
lila

2006-04-02T00:57:00.000+08:00

this week is the last three weeks for school.usual,life been hectic.but this particular week been a pretty fun week.though there is so much of rushing here and there.

tuesday was an outdoor drawing lesson.it was fun fun!
wednesday had my not-so-good arts history presentation.
thursday had a good time dirtying myself with the blue foam.
friday was Singapore Arts Festival Media Launch.

the shots of the days.=)

thats all.

and currently waiting for the theatre voucher from NAC.anyone willing to come with me to watch any one of the shows available?

2006-03-29T03:34:00.001+08:00

im tired.and stressed.oh dear..still tonnes of work to do.
been delaying my drawing and now i have many many to do.
and all of them deal with water colour and chinese ink...
erzan,can i just do it all with charcoal instead?
please..?
its so much easier to handle.
though its VERY messy.
i dont mind.
still have my wallpaper and self portrait to complete.
arts history presentation today.
arts history research paper next week.
visual studies presentation next week.
clay by thursday.
and the list still goes on and on and on...

two more weeks to go.
ill have to endure.
end it well.
Arts Management will be my next station.

2006-03-29T03:34:00.000+08:00

im tired.and stressed.oh dear..still tonnes of work to do.
been delaying my drawing and now i have many many to do.
and all of them deal with water colour and chinese ink...
erzan,can i just do it all with charcoal instead?
please..?
its so much easier to handle.
though its VERY messy.
i dont mind.
still have my wallpaper and self portrait to complete.
arts history presentation today.
srts history research paper next week.
visual studies presentation next week.
clay by thursday.
and the list still goes on and on and on...

two more weeks to go.
ill have to endure.
end it well.
Arts Management will be my next station.

2006-03-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

i miss you.

and im feeling very sad.

2006-03-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

What do you know?What do i know?

Do you know 'me'?

Do i know 'me'?

Full of drama.

What do you see?What do you think?
Who am I?Who is 'me'?

Riddles.

Riddles?

Random-ness?

Maybe.

Door open.Pull.

Door close.Push.

Vice-versa?Definitely.

One way street is prohibited.

The end.

Or is it to be continued....

Lila

2006

2006-03-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

the time is here.

written test.
15/03/2006.

interview.
16/03/2006.

portfolio must be ready.
arrange all pictures and leaflets.

stress.
stress.
STRESS.

learn how to breathe.
still remember when i have to go for interview for my foundation year.
its the same feeling.

oh dear....

2006-03-05T09:46:00.000+08:00

what do i do when you are gone?
what do i do even when you are here with me?
what do i do?

carparks.
cars.
parked and then in mere hours gone to somewhere else.
somewhere where they think they will get what they want.
parked again and gone again.
they do just the same no matter where they go.
look for it when they need it.
abandon it when they have enough of it.
but come looking for it again when in need.
this goes on and on and on.

do these cars appreciate their parking lots that they have?
or is it just merely there for the sake of it?
they are there for only a few hours anyway.
how do think parking lots will feel to be abandoned every now and then?

when sun is glaring,cars will be very picky.
they wont park there when there is too much sun shining.
but when thats the only one left?
they will park there.

is the parking lot near the exit?
yes,alright.
but what happens to those that are much further?
as usual abandon.

what do you think they will say if they could talk?
how do they react when they know that the car is leaving?

now look into mirror.
what do you see?
ask that reflection on the mirror,
'am i like the cars?'

2006-02-07T18:47:00.000+08:00

how many of you love to flirt?
raise up your hands please..
hahaha!
flirting is so so fun!
the art of flirting...
anyone?
ever flirt with your own boyfriend?
even when you are in the relationship?
hahaha.
its a wonderful feeling.
tralalala....

*dancing around in circles in my strawberry underwear*
oh oh...wooooppss!
*giggles*

2006-01-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

its been a good day at ubin.our 2nd day of of shooting.much more familiar with the place,but the mozzies refuse to spare me.oh well...been a really great experience.*smiles*

here are some of the crews of peEscape.

from right:

paul,miss producer and the tribesman

from right:

costume c. cum actress,costume c. cum camerawoman,camerawoman,make-up artist cum lightman

from right:

lightman,and the rest of us who rally loves to cam whore.haha!

most of the crews;preparing to set off to mainland.

at last,here featuring our mr director(in white).

here are the girl power!we made 80% of the peEscape population.hehehe.almost an all girl production man.but still we rock!dont we?haha!

may our production be a success.

and we are still hoping & praying that it will be.

2006-01-30T21:17:00.001+08:00

to:
the love of my life

boyfriend,
we had a silent break-up.unknown to us.our heart just happen not to beat as one anymore.we were unsensitive towards each other.how can we ever come up with the thought that we hated each other?*laughs*well well... im happy right now with you darling.

i heart you more than ever.
it will be there just like the stars.
*winks*

from:
the girl

2005-12-17T18:28:00.001+08:00

life wasnt that good lately.

oh well...like what people always say,life is like a tyre.sometimes you are up there sometimes you are down.

whatever it is,i always believe that everything that happens,it happens for a reason.though at times its hard to accept,we cant always have things in our way all the time.

yes,i respect your decision.and i understand why you did that.

its alright.i know its hard to forget what happens.you have ample time to get over it.dont you worry too.i can take care of myself.i wont let 'him' cross the line.

'he',i will confront you.and i want the answer.i want 'you' to clear the misty air.please...

i hope what i think will be 'your' answer.cuz i cant imagine it if 'you' say otherwise.we have our boundaries.

boyfriend,it seemed that we have alot of time to waste.we are both within reach.but why do i feel far?

im alone.i feel lonely.

i misses you.

terribly.

where are you?

i have alot of things to tell you.

but instead of expressing it in words,can i just hug you?and hope that you get what i have to deliver?

we are not particularly busy arent we?

oh well..

----------------------------------------------------

im emotional unstable.

i guess.

i want to cry.

i want to laugh too.

at the same time i feel like screaming.

i feel lazy to talk.

but i think i want to talk.

depressed?

am i?

but why?

stress?

why?again.

lonely?

maybe.

im confused with my own emotions.

define my feelings.

cuz i cant figure it out myself either.

2005-12-07T19:42:00.000+08:00

there is so much anger in me right now.i cant seem to control it.i feel like i should cry.or even shout,scream whatsoever.i need a proper outlet.ive been trying to control myself.i kept on breathing in and out.felt better.but only for awhile.the thought keep coming back.it haunts me.damn.

you know what?i thought you were gone for good?but i was damn wrong lah.u kept on bugging him.if u meant to be friends,i dont freaking care and i wont freaking mind about it either.but hell no!*roll eyes*what do you mean when you actually told him 'oh,i thought of giving it to you..' give what?define 'IT'.

and you.god can you just somehow quit your job as a liar?fuck.you tell her this,you tell him that.woah..but i think u still need to keep track of what you lied alright?so that you can lie properly.wanna be a liar but lie also cannot lie properly lor..*roll eyes*

2005-11-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

what life must have been without you.
finally you have turned 18.
i watched you grow.
we mature with each other as the year passed.
its been really wonderful.
i love you.
theres nothing special that day.
im sorry.
but i hope i was a great company on that day.
*winks*
and i hope that we made your day somehow.
*giggles*
live been blissful for us.
you have many different ways to get me to cry.
you told me you doubted my love?
you told me that i was lying to you all this while.
you told me that ive just been fooling around with you and wasnt serious about us.
i was shocked.
didnt know how to react to it.
boy,i was sad.
*pinches your cheek*
naughty boy!
*smirk*
i love you still nonetheless.
*smiles*
and thank you for everything.
*hugs*

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19.11.2005

an evening spent with two good friends.

nice hugging me eh geetha?really comfy..(;

though he talks alot.i still enjoy spending time talking to him.and i love his photography skills.hugh,im jealous!

they came over.

thank god i invited them.

and i enjoyed myself.they made my day.

thank you so much guys.

*hugs*
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-A Beautiful Place/Keindahan Taman-
22nd november 2005
7.30pm
victoria concert hall

she had her debut concert as a member in westwood chorus, at VCH.and i am proud of her.~weee..

*applause*part of westwood chorus.

full of concentration.and stress!haha.my parents and i were having lots of fun down there watching them perform.

at the same there were other schools performing as well.and they too put up a pretty good show.and i have my favourites.hehe.

zhonghua secondary.

beatty secondary.

edgefield primary school.

they are definitely the most adorable and the youngest.and their performances were very enjoyable.especially when they sang 'the glory of love'.

-the end-

*applause*

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another day which was spent by spending lots of money on neo-printing.ahaks!

here goes...

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26-11-2005

we had dinner...*smiles*

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28/11/2005

i got to have a little get together with old mates.i miss them terribly.its been over a year since i last met them i believe.was really pleased to get to see them again.

after more than a decade of friendship.aint she pretty?

we were close and still do.

we had a BLAST!

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and till today,life hasnt been pretty good.you made me miss you so much.where are you man?*roar*

2005-11-14T10:04:00.000+08:00

im still crying.

its all your fault.

how do i overcome this?whenever i thought that it will be better but what happen will always ALWAYS be the opposite.

dont do it if its not suppose to be.

STOP.

2005-11-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

isnt whatever that u have done hurt me enough?for your information,its more than enough.i dont need this from you anymore.though i see this coming but he made me believe that u wont go to this extent.how could you?its nt that you are unaware of my existance.its not that you are unaware of us.u knew it all along dont you?are just trying your luck?thinking that maybe its possible between the both of you?after all the silly and immature stuff that you have done towards him?if you ever realise,you are old.a damn old divorcee who have 2 young kids.bitch.i can never hold back my tears whenever i was told what you u did to him.and each time i recall back,ill cry.you have done so much.and it hurts me so bad.some things that u did to him,ive never do it on him.where is your dignity as a woman?do u have to do all that just to get his attention and to feel good?or even think that u can bring him to bed with you?behave like your age.bitch.

i swear i hate you bitch.

2005-11-10T11:51:00.000+08:00

ramadhan left us.
and now we have syawal accompanying us.

to all muslims i wish you,

Selamat Hari Raya

Maaf Zahir & Batin.

celebrated hari raya at malacca.which is like fun, fun, FUN!where theres like tonnes and tonnes of lil tots running ard.*laughs*the thought of them make miss them so much!there are all so adorable.

me and sister were having our love of our lifetime taking our self-portraits. *giggles*whats life without taking them.

so here they go....

jeng jeng.

*laughs*

on our booorrriiiiing journey to malacca.had to sit for almost 3.5hrs.that makes my butt and back hurts.ouch!

the fabulous 4.

*giggles*

needless to say.

my dad loves the camera too.

*smiles*

and my sis is forever being camouflage.

they make me happy always.

they love to take pictures.

and i love them.

the second day of raya,my family left me in malaysia.

but it wasnt so bad afterall.

had the whole day planned out.

first was lunch at pizza hut at mahkota parade.

and they were my bank for the day.

they paid for everything.

live is so wonderful with them.

i was defintely enjoying my drink with my cuzzy.

since everything was paid for.

*giggles*

next was to bowl.

it was surprisingly cheap there though it was public holiday.

RM26 for 4.inclusive of shoe rental and 2 pair of socks.

so were happy.

let the pictures above speaks for itself.

at night it was to catch the midnight movie.

oh i so love my hair..

*winks*

so here we are on our way....

ok the movie starts at 1245.

we ride on bikes.

did para-para.

i was fooling myself.

*laughs*

but it was fun.

*grins*

everyone was queuing.

though it ws a freaking midnight show lar.

wonder if they ever find that sleeping is such a beauty.

well...we are part of them too.

its like we have to wait for forever for the show to starts.

*sigh*

but hey, the day rocks.

except that i wish my sis were there too.

and i was missing her terribly.):

yet another day of hari raya...

these are a few of us who loves the camera.

especially us.

orhh..and us again.

and us..

our excited faces to go to our aunt house to have a feast!

we were hungry kids.

we went crazy when night falls.

and i love them.

and they love me too.

shes on top of my list.

look at her cheeks!

temptation to squeeze them.

and i love to hug her.

yet another one.

when he laughs he will hit his own head.i wonder why..

when he is excited he will start kicking.

when he smile,i fell im love with him.

such adorable boyfriend.

loves you.

*laughs*

she is so talkative.

like me lar.

*giggels*

and smart too.

great fashion sense though she is only like what 4yrs old?

hearts her to bits.

here is the youngest of all.

he is 3months old.

finest baby of all.

2005-10-31T11:36:00.000+08:00

bitter sweet of life.

people come and go.

they come in all sorts of shape and sizes.

with different behaviour,attitude,believes and everything else.

they make us happy.

they can also make us sad.

or angry.

even confused.

no matter who they are,

what they do,

the impact they have in our lives,

it boils down to one thing.

a lesson learnt and an experienced gained.

some are lucky to get to meet people who makes them feel like in heaven.

some unlucky ones bump into those who make their life like a living hell.

we love them.

we confide in them.

we seek love and care from them.

we respect them.

we hate them.

we diss them.

we chide them.

life's unfair.

i know.

you know it too.

we all know it.

sweet-ness of life.

i feel good after getting what i have long wanted.

being with you for the past days made me feel complete all over again.

the emptiness was thrown so far away.

the loneliness was long forgotten.

i forgot how it felt to be in your arms.

every moment was fully cherished.

our satisfaction were fulfilled.

we wanted the time to freeze.

but we cant.

yet another craving was fulfilled.

i love you lil sis.

2005-10-17T15:41:00.000+08:00

me

you

lets get married!

*grins*

lets all be happy.

i wanna dance and dance and dance all night.

only with YOU.

i feel like screaming with joy.

will anyone get deaf?

who cares.

*laughs*

as long as im happy.

lets continue dancing darling.

2005-10-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

questions that need answers.
and i really need them.

1. what does it mean when girls tell dirty jokes to guys?is it because she is interested to bring him to bed?or is she interested in him as person and wants something more?or she is just trying to be a flirt?or just for fun?

2.what does it mean when girls can get sensation by just brushing her lower body against the guys lower body(the pelvic area)?is she desperate?does she wants to bring him to bed?or what?

3.whenever girls get those feelings and she tells the guy how she felt,what she trying to show?that she wants the guy to proceed on?

2005-10-01T15:49:00.000+08:00

how do you live without any insecurities?

damn!
i hate feeling insecure.

and i am so against JOSHEPHINE.

i swear.

no matter what you say.

i dont care.

i just hate her.

what more do i want?

2005-09-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

how do i live without you?
we are near.
as near as a pin of bacteria away.
but i do feel miles away from you deep inside.
far.real far.
i miss u.i really do.
we are busy with our own life i know.
maybe we should divert our concentration.
no.maybe we should be a multi-tasker.
i dont think that will work either.
i think its just how we manage our time when we are together.
quality,not quantity.
i just miss talking to you.
spending the day by just hanging out with you in bed.
where we can cuddle,hug and just basically talk till the cows come home.
in which we used to do so much in the past.
i know time is crucial now.
we will work it out k?
i really feel being close does not only include being physically close but emotionally too.
im looking forward to be with you and be in your arms once again.

time flies.

you've turn 13.

im proud to call you my sister.

you are such a sweetheart.

people always say 'eh,you really love your sister arh?'

and i do.

*smiles*

you got love me or not?

*giggles*

know your goals and head for it.

ey,when u gonna treat me to neoprint again arh?

i think im over loaded with work.

one after another.

i HATE animation.

damn.

2005-09-04T11:20:00.000+08:00

how responsible are we for our actions?
are you responsible for what you have done?

think about it.

2005-09-02T19:41:00.000+08:00

a different side of life.

its always between the good and bad.
if only we can choose.
but in reality, we cant.
we can just accept the way things are and benefit from it.
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i dont understand why people lie to other people.
why lie to have friends?
why lie to get people to have a good impression on you?
why lie to prove to others that you are good-looking?

i dont understand why people backstab other people.

i dont understand why people make use of other people for their own benefit.

you have the brain.
use it.
use it wisely i mean.
dont use it to make up stories.
you are mature.
think like a mature adult.
get a life and stop fucking lie.
it wont get you anywhere.

what about ego?
yar everyone does have their own ego.
but if your nose is so high up,people will hate you.
realise that.

although we live in this world for ourself and we dont owe others anything,
but dont our life evolves others?

behave appropriately.
know when to be a 'bitch' and when not.

how we behave,
what we say,
everything that we do,
will be able to affect people.
remember that.

im happy.

i have great beings around me.

and i love them.

boyfriend.(forever there for me.muahs.hugs.love you.)

amira.(she sticks with me.i owe her man.thank you so much girlfriend!)

lil princess.(sees me in every state that i am.love love you.)

papa.(always asking how's school.hugs.)

sakura.(craziness.all bitchy.anything and everything thats under the sun.hugs.)

geetha.(my one and only miss vasantham.mwah!)

nasha.(my beloved partner.saya saaayyaaang awak!(;)

riyah.(always my huggable darling.hugs pls..)

04a3.(the most act-cute class ever!miss you all.)

FS1O.(classmates that are forever being crazy.)

MI tarian girls.(gossips.gossips.gossips.and more gossips.i like..(:)

end.

2005-08-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

its been a real stressful week.
but well,still enjoyed myself loads.
especially this week being the last week of school.
pictures.
pictures.
more pictures.

went to Singapore Arts Museum.

after the long quiet walk in there.

depressed mira..

we soo loove the tree.

we definitely have nothing against drawing lessons.thats why we are doing our work so diligently.though i wasnt paying much attention to my drawing unlike mira.just look at her..

razali turn us to be craaazziiee!!have to complete the model in a week?not forgetting the technical drawing,artist impression and bla bla..tts why we are like retards.well..urm at least mira still looks normal.cuz she's our grp leader.yay!u rock girl.(;

and here we are at taka making a fool of ourselves.think cuz we are shocked that mira shouted.hahax!why?she left her file at art friend.

mira: (super loudly)argh!

lila & siti: what?

mira: my file!

then she ran out of the gallery and run up to art friend,leavin us all behind.it was funny.first time i hear her squeak.*laughs*

and to top it all.my day out with my dearie.every friday is our day.i know.it is when we really go all out!

tekka complex.

somewhere @ little india

loves

2005-08-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

im gonna make myself sound like some high school girl who is in love.
but i am.
i cant deny that.

i love you.
i love you.
and i love you.

thank you for everything that you've done for me.

2005-08-10T05:09:00.000+08:00

moo moo moooo.

loove loove loove loovveeee.

1825days altogether.still counting...

its my love for you.

its eternity.

chak!

2005-08-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

we went crazie.we took pictures everywhere!

in the toilet.

in the lift.

at BK.

BK again.

outside raffle's shopping centre.

(wish the dress is mine.hmm..butterflies.butterflies.i like..!obsession i guess.)

another one at BK.

(my act-cute princess.woo-hooo!)

and one fine day after school...

mira took a picture of me,

and i took a picture of her!

(look at her face.take picture must also have a stern face.*giggles*)

first time im presenting,SITI!we are mira's faithful follower to the ladies.

(no offence though.i love gg to the ladies as well actually.*laughs*winks*)

decide.

2005-08-06T15:18:00.000+08:00

people can you please make up your mind?!?

you are making me confused.

it aint fun being in my shoes.

i thought it was this.but suddenly its that.

WHAT?

i repeat.make up your FREAKING MIND.

ALRIGHT?

thank you...

what a day..

2005-08-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

i had to rush razali's project.
i had to rush to school.
i had to get a cab driver who doesnt know how to get to lasalle.

i had a great day though.
i so love the good old time.
i enjoyed your company today.

i really miss the place that we used to go.
i miss the time that we used to waste our time there.
i somehow found that where we went was just as great.

i love to eat lately.
i eat lotsa stuff.

i want chocolate.
i am craving for it now.
i want cheese cake.AGAIN.

i had fun disturbing you.
i feel like today is confession day for us.
i didnt know you kept those 'puffs' from me.
i accept what you said.
i forgive you.

i wanna be with you.
i want you.
i miss you now.

i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.

2005-08-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

i dont know what should i label you.
are you ignorant or what?
what about selfish?
or an egoist?
which one?
you tell me.so that its clear.im confused.
you want things your way.
you cant alright?
in this world you are not alone.
do you realise that there are people right,left,front and back of you?
you have to compromise.
that you must realise.
COMPROMISE.understand?
oh and be more sensitive towards others as well k?
and just be your freaking self where ever you are.
you DONT have to act.
you are WHAT YOU ARE.
accept that.
please realise.
thank you.

roar

2005-07-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

I HATE WEDNESDAYS.

DAMN.

2005-07-25T10:33:00.000+08:00

on our way home.

2005-07-25T10:29:00.001+08:00

boo!

2005-07-25T10:29:00.000+08:00

polka dots.

2005-07-25T10:28:00.000+08:00

girls.us.

2005-07-25T10:27:00.000+08:00

feeding time..(;

2005-07-25T10:26:00.000+08:00

classic cheese.thats mine.

2005-07-25T10:25:00.002+08:00

secret recipe.

2005-07-25T10:25:00.001+08:00

act cute lar..

2005-07-25T10:25:00.000+08:00

sedap corner.

2005-07-25T10:24:00.000+08:00

me.(:

2005-07-25T10:22:00.001+08:00

Z1662PFS

2005-07-25T10:22:00.000+08:00

on our way to JB.

2005-07-25T10:20:00.000+08:00

us at the padang.

2005-07-25T10:03:00.000+08:00

fireworks.

2005-07-25T10:02:00.000+08:00

the future is ours to make.

summary.

2005-07-25T09:22:00.000+08:00

my long weekend been great.abit drama here and there though.some things that happen was really an opener for me.here it goes..

friday,22/07/2005:
no school day.yay.went to yishun.met dyF.hang out.1330hrs.met boi.was still as down as ever.almost silent throughout.boi wasnt in the mood to talk much.played some stupid game.i lost.damn.tried talking to him.didnt wanna listen.stubborn.1600hrs.boi went home.received a few calls from him after that.1815hrs.he called again.this time was terrible.he was in pain.did something real stupid.rushed to his place.bloody hands.cold.pale.drama starts from there... all are fine now.thank goodness.the end.

saturday,23/07/2005:
miss nora's birthday.happy belated birthday.went for the NDP preview.oh well.. not really exciting.i like the fireworks though.it is so beautiful.like woah..!!met my friend,hafizah.she's one of the motivators.talked abit.dance to that 'lets reach out' song.together with my parents.funny.fetched my sister at school.went supper.met another friend,atiqah.the end.

sunday,24/07/2005:
its riyah's birthday!*sing along*happy birthday to you.happy birthday to you.happy birthday to riyah.happy birthday to you.muahs.i love you many many darling.i miss you too!*hugs*.went JB.had a real good time.celebrated my advance birthday.had dinner at sedap corner.then went for dessert at secret recipe.yummy.thats where i gt my bday cake.classic cheese.i want some more..bought two pairs of shoes.yay!*grins*the end.

2005-07-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

I love you
I love you
I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops
I am the seed
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud
Proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and misty world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love to hold
To feel
To breathe
To live you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing, yea
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me
Oh no
I'm in love with you,I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
Dangerous
Dangerously in love, with you
Oh I love you
I love you, love you
love you, love you
love you, I love you
Oh yes
I love you
I love you, love you
love you, love you
Love with you
Love you
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you
Dangerously in love

dangerously in love.beyonce.
specially for my love.

2005-07-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

its been a long weekend.had no lessons on friday.and its gonna be that way for the rest of my semester.*winks*
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met riyah,geetha,aisha,CT and huda last friday.was great.so much fun with them.been so long since we met and just had a good laugh.thank you beautiful girls!i was estatic to get to see you all again.*grins*misses all of you still.

to jiali,happy birthday!i still remember ok..*laughs*

to all in MI esp. for those in 04a3,good luck for your mid-yrs.

*shakes hand with all*
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if theres something that i could wish for,it would be for the time to turn back and just stay still.cuz i love the company.i love the atmosphere.i love how things were.i enjoyed living with him.i enjoyed the moments that we spent with each other.i cant simply let those moments to pass so fast.

i appreciated every single minute that i spent with him over the weekends.two nights.it felt so perfect.complete.we cooked.we had our 'cat-fight'.we chatted.everything.

i wont forget this weekend.this anniversary is special in its own way.i got a good gift from you as well as something unexpected.the whole night was comfy.u made me feel safe in your arms.how i wish ull be here again and give the same comfort.every single night.

there wont be any good night kisses.no more good morning kisses.no more early morning irritating teases just to make me wake up.no more messing up your hair.no more patting your head.no more breakfast together.no more knocking on the toilet door to ask me why im taking so long to bathe.no more complains and comments about people that u saw on 'malaysian idol'.no more fighting over what songs to download.no more hugs.no more cuddles in bed.so much more of no more.

i hate to see you go.i shed tears cuz i dont wanna see u go.and leave me.i dont wanna be alone.cuz i know im gonna miss you.cuz life gonna go back to square one.cuz i dont know when i can get to see you again and enjoy our twosome life all over again without having to bother about time.

i shed tears cuz i felt that its gonna be the last time that i get to be near to you.and hear your steady heartbeat.and feel your breathing.i dont know.that was how i felt.i was afraid.afraid that its truly gonna be the last time.i dont know.that was my feeling.i knew i was just being too imaginative.i thought i was just too happy to be with you again after so long.

but later you told me.your head hurts.and it hurt so badly.pressure on your eyes.cold sweat.you were unsure.whats wrong?we have to find out.so that u and me will feel at ease.

how u talked to me.it was different.it was comforting.i feel loved.

i want you to be safe.i need you to be strong.

i want us.i want you.and i want me.together.

i love you.

04072005

2005-07-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

.first day of school.
.nothing great.
.some people looks good.*winks*
.get to know a few people.
.not all were friendly.maybe still new or something.i dunno.
.one of my classmates name is huda!
.gosh how i miss my huda.
.huda my malay class partner andmy tarian partner.
.every monday lesson is only for 1hr.WOW!*grin*
.one guy in particular is very extraordinary.special in his own way.hmm...*frown*
.receive my very first assignment.*sigh*
.hunt for my missing materials.*stomps feet*
"where can i get plywood?and soft pencils?supplier,can u quickly send to Art Friend?stop telling me its out of stock.thank you."
.the whole thing in school reminds me of MI.
.i miss the people in MI.
.riyah.nasha.smurf.aisha.ct.huiwen.jiali.geetha.huda.liyun.da-jie.adelene.
.nasri.helmi.jacky.hugh.jj.brandon.
.my tarian girls.i miss my gossip-mongers.
.and many many more people.
.essay thing reminds of GP and mrs ruby khoo and PW and mrs lee[outPUT].
.the term economically,etc reminds me of miss michelle foong and geography.
.i so dont miss their lesson but i do miss the people.
.me & mira just go like 'hmm....'
.long day tomorrow.
.9am-4pm.

2005-07-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

smelly.stinky.

2005-07-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

esprit

2005-07-04T01:09:00.000+08:00

secret recipe

2005-07-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

'stream'.

2005-07-04T01:07:00.001+08:00

steps.

2005-07-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

the bridge and monkey!

2005-07-04T01:06:00.001+08:00

the trail

2005-07-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

tree-top walk

2005-07-04T01:03:00.001+08:00

2661

2005-07-04T01:03:00.000+08:00

LJS.

2005-07-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

help-less.tired.

2005-07-04T01:01:00.001+08:00

tree-top

2005-07-04T01:01:00.000+08:00

'caged'

2005-07-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

our legs lor...

2005-07-04T00:58:00.000+08:00

2005-06-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

~Fajar Annual St. John's Camp 2005~
:had lotsa fun:
:got bullied by my cadets frm all levels.:(but i still love yall:
:got to know my sec1 cadets:
:was really glad that i could amazingly get along with them:
:only gt to sleep for a total of 5hrs for both nights:
:Tree Top Walk was fun!can we go for more hike people?pls..?:
:i love the campnite!we are the Senior Citizens.and we rock!:
:congrats to farlini,aysha and nasyitah:
:girls,keep up the good work:
:miss my sister loads:
:thanx mr yong for the scrumptious supper:
:though it was VERY tiring i enjoyed spending my time with those people:
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ATTN:
to those people who are involve in the camp,thank you very much.i love each and everyone of you.hugs and kisses to all.
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well was just thinking if i can adopt the sec1s as my baby.it just seem that they are so cute!so irresistable.haha.its just that i grow too attached to some of them during the camp.thats why.hmmm..we shall see ok?maybe i can ask them about it later when i meet them in school.
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ey darling.i miss you lar.i have to wait till end of this week.how much i miss you,is how much the desert misses the rain.*sigh*

2005-06-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

been out.im all worn out.

but its was fulfilling.satisfaction achieved.

everything that happened can never repeat itself.only once.no repetition.it happen unexpectedly.i felt like im a first-timer.surprisingly.definitely something that im looking forward for more now.

passion.

be passionate in anything you do.you'll achieve great outcome.

2005-06-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

i forgot to include something.
i love the two beautiful girls that i went out with today.

*muahs*

2005-06-18T00:43:00.000+08:00

partner for life.natasha shah.

2005-06-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

way home

2005-06-18T00:40:00.000+08:00

burgerking.internationalplaza.

2005-06-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

fingerfood.

2005-06-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

drinking competition.i lost.just couldnt stop laughing.haha.nasha=good sucker.that was why she won.(:

2005-06-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

yummypasta

2005-06-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

eeeekksss!i dont like my picture onmy student card.i look funny.can i re-take?please...?but nasha said that mine looks better than hers.but i dont think so..only that her top in that picture and the background is sooo matching.haha.like santa claus.all about RED.haha.(;

met my partner for life today!natasha shah.its so last minute.but it was great.although it was awhile we had lotsa fun.bitching and bitching and more bitching.as usual.expected.

i miss him.how?damn.we will meet soon k?a proper date this time.next monday maybe?can?

sadly i cant go for the sleepover with them.shit.im sooo jealous here.damn.i miss the chance to gossip and bitch again with my two darlings;riyah and nasha.stupid camp.now i cant go.do tell me earlier about the next sleepover k?

ey princess.i like you now.and i mean it.i realise you are able to socialise better this days.i like..good baby.*muahs (:

hey,i miss everyone.i wanna meet up with you people.can?but when?

still i have no one to go with me to watch all those shows that i wanna watch.at least Quidam and Ballet under the Stars he is going with me.the rest?anyone?

let me add on to my list of things that i need and have to do.

23.watch 'Impenjarament'
24.think on how i should revamp my rooms
25.think on how i should spend my day with my girlfriends on the 23rd july
[riyah will be able to understand what im saying here.hehe.(;]

and sadly im only left with two more weeks of holidays and then im going to start my new chapter.but at the same time im excited!

many loves to all.

things to do

2005-06-11T09:10:00.000+08:00

Randomly, things that i have to do and i want to do.

1.photo-taking session for student's card and transitlink
2.hand in tuition grant form
3.College orientation
4.have a good date
5.spend time with him
6.spend time with lil princess
7.spend time with my girlfriends
8.go to the beach
9.attend my cousin's engagement
10.prepare for school
11.meet mr yeo
12.shopping
13.blog more often?
14.get things done and make sure everyone is doing their job for St.John's camp 15.meetings,meetings and more meetings
16.reports,reports and more reports

maybe tts all that i can think of for now.maybe theres more that i should do but i just dont seem to remember.whatever.

im in a total mess right now.my whole body.my mind.my life.everything.theres a need for me to adjust to things and i have to get it done soon.really soon.or else something unwanted is definitely going to happen.and i obviously dont want that to happen.

now i remember what else i should do.

17.watch 'Macbeth'
18.watch 'Quidam by Cirque du Soleil'
19.Ballet under the Stars-The Little Mermaid
20.watch 'Betrayal'
21.watch movie screening Moulin Rouge(2001) at DBS Arts Centre

but who wants to go with me to watch all this?some find it pointless.how?anyone?

fuck.

also one other thing.

22.go for the World Blood Donor Day Party at Esplanade Park

anymore?i dont know.

2005-06-02T11:52:00.000+08:00

someones backyard